A Life Of Gymspiration

I  have been doing a lot of thinking the last few weeks. And I have decided the word I hate more than anything is..... JUST It's weird right??? Probably not what you were thinking. Let me explain why for a minute.  All through my life,this word has been used to define me one way or another. Here are a few examples. Just a girl Just a preschool teacher (Do you ever want to be a real teacher or is this it?") Just an aide Just have a bachelors degree. Just an HDFS student Just a babysitter/nanny I just lost 35 pounds I just ran a 5k I just did a sprint triathlon I just came in dead last Just an average student I could keep going but I Think you get the point. I recently started tutoring and I love it. One reason is because I have people (parents) who are looking to me for help and they ask me for advice and treat me like I am educated and for the most part. I have not gotten that before. I have heard people say to just ignore it and not listen to

So today marks one year since my last day working for a church. One year ago, I left the church and honestly..... have barely set foot in a church since. I went to my mom's church (the church in which I grew up) a few times (Palm Sunday, Easter, once in the summer and Christmas Eve) but other than that this girl has been a non-church-goer. To be honest, what I went through a year ago has kind of left me bitter and scarred when it comes to the church. It left me with a really bad taste in my mouth. As time passed, people who told me would keep in touch didn't and I even got to hear first hand some people saying some really ugly things about me... As if the transition wasn't hard enough. It wasn't all bad though. I have a handful of people who have remained faithful and supportive friends throughout the last year. Oh yea... and in the last year I moved to California. :) In July, I packed up all my stuff in a Penske truck that Dan got to drive from Colorado to Cali